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it’s 6.33pm on Sunday….have just spent my day today wiz mom….
bring her to auntie’s place…spent sometime there….go to jusco….bought some household stuff…..then balik rumah, online…chatting….wat else? nth much….
oh yeah, today went to "kuan yim teng" to pai pai….. go to "tak sio jin"…in short, to chase away the bad influences, bad ppl who do more harm than good…. it’s a norm ceremony for chinese ppl every year…sometimes ppl do it more than once…..
realise that i am already 25 years old….5 more years to go and i’m 30…
time flies really fast…..it’s feels like it’s only yesterday that i finished my graduation in UM….feels like it’s only yesterday that i have spent my days in KL, wandering in Midvalley, taking bus from Pudu…hahahahaha
really miss those day, going lectures meeting up wiz coursemates…..
having our lunch at canteen, though it’s not the best food….
haih….realy miss those days…where i am still naive little girl… not to say i am not naive now la..i am still very very naive…it’s not a good thing…..
must learn to be more "not-naive"….ahahahhahaha
these names…. yeansuang, yenting, soonhau, sinyong, ahpao, ahgu, engsiang, ahjow,angnee, meihuey, shoohooi, cheewei, peileng & all those siao siao gang…i still remember when we together organise the chemistry nite…it’s really memorable….the experience, the satisfaction, i am wordless speechless…..

take few years back, secondary days…..life lagi simple….dun need to bother bout commitments…the only thing to worry bout is study, exams….assignments….
this is the stage where one enjoys the most la….pre-adult life, getting introduced to love…sharing life wiz loved ones….real sweet….real sweet….

i remember my 1st love….quite funny of how we actually met…we met during a hiking in one of our school activities….my 1st impression of him is not good actually, don’t actually liked him…alwiz kacau me..call me barli-peng la, kopi-peng la..hahahahaha
but dislikeness quickly turns to nice, sweet feeling of like….and we end up as a couple not long after…. now to think back, it’s real sweet…. thanks peter to give me such a sweet 1st love….

love is such a pretty thing, yet it’s a one kinda thing that once it turn sour, it turns into a not so pretty thing…. love needs both side to give and take…only a side doing the giving or taking, will imbalance the relationship, and it wont last long….
sincerity is needed in a relationship…faith and trust is important as well….

do you have wat it takes to love and being loved?

I think I really should FUCKING shut myself out from outside world already…. I’m FUCKING PISSED off….totally pissed off today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My Friday’s nite mood totally blewn away…………………… Of wanting to initally meet up old frens….then suddenly…………. I don wanna talk bout it….

I’m blogging in my msn’s space….

you guys can go have a look there……

Here’s my link….

http://nlipeng.spaces.live.com/

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It’s halfway through CNY…..And this year, i celebrate it kinda differently. How different?, some would ask me…. why is it different???? Let me tell you how different this is…

Way before CNY, I didn’t buy so much clothes as years before….Maybe cus of work, don’t really have much time to go shopping too…..Apart from this, I got bombarded rudely from someone who I called "fren" for a matter that is really I don’t think is a matter. Sometimes, it reallt gets me thinking, being nice, being patient, being good to frens does not bring me any good, BUT it only brings me more harm than good…….Or can I say it that frens hurt me more than any enemies could do….Nobody would ever imagine a fren could do something like tad…

Once, I have a fortune teller said to me, never treat ppl so good, as it’s in your nature to give and take, and it’s in your nature to forgive and forget, and it’s in you that you put frens in front of yourself…but this particular character will alwiz the one that’s gonna make you sad. Ppl tend to take advantage of you and won’t appreciate you much. Tad time, I was thinking, nah~~~~ it won’t happen la…this fortune teller is not accurate….But years come, and this seems to be true….The fact that I alwiz believe " if you treat a person good, ppl will treat u good too"…. BUT now, I’m shaken and surprised by ppl who I called them "FREN"…

All these years, I have encountered a big circle of frens who come and go……since childhood, primary school, secondary school, varsity and up to working world now….Recent scenarios have got me to think back and flash back my memories on my journey with "frenship". I realised that the fortune teller’s right. He did read my palm correctly. I have few frens that appreciate me….I do have a lot of those who take advantages of me, and this really shook me up…..

Does ppl nowadays act like this???? Just act as how they wish, and do not care if they hurt ppl with their self-centred, irresponsible act?????

Guys, put yourself into my shoes…..what would u feel if you were me….get scolded rudely for something that is not a matter….And for that, we ended our frenship….I’m fine with it. I don’t think you’re worth to be my fren either. Call me childish, call me stubborn….but once you’ve done more harm than good, i will never treat you the same anymore….

And those guys who choose not to include yourself between our rival, tad’s good….but I personally do not feel that you guys really do not include yourselves inside. As what I tell is that with the stop of connection, and not even dared to even speak to me with your "fren’s " presence….and plus, do not involve me anymore in any outings….with all these criterias, I don’t think this is wat u guys said "not getting involved". If this is what you guys really choose to be, to be will you guys have…..

I’m jus sick of what u guys do, and what u guys are….all are FAKE!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes, i can say that I regret knowing u guys….hurt me more than enuf…take me as a joker clown….sometimes stupidity caught me…naivity took me in…..i should have never treat ppl better than i treat myself…. from now on, you can call me "lensi" or cool….i’m going to be hard, to be harsh, to be self-centered,…no more goodie goodie lipeng…..

this is wat u guys wan….i’ll give it to all of you……

had jus finished cooking today….thought of blogging before having lunch….mom wasn’t hungry yet, so i guess i’ll wait for her to have lunch with…

yeah, mom’s recovering…she can’t move a lot though…have to have our help for everything still…but thank god she’s recovering….she said she’s bored though…can’t move like she used to…alwiz sit around, or lay around whole day….but I told her, it’s time for her to relax and enjoy our service though…haha….

another week has passed…and time’s ticking fast….geez…and i’m 24 this year ade…

ahahhaha…sudah old…sudah old…

anyway…Valentine’s coming….the LOVE is in the air~~~~~~ but not mine…ahahahahha

Here I wish all the COUPLES in the world————- HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!!!!!

had the scariest day of my life yesterday….mom was robbed!!!!! she was walking near my house yesterday, and 2 guys riding on a bike snatch her bag from behind. She fell down, and passed out. luckily there was ppl around, and my bro happen to drive passed by, managed to get her to hospital nearby and get treatment. Luckily there were no broken bones, but her right shoulder bone & waist area fractured. And i guess she knocked on her head when she fall, cus her head swelled up so big..so big…bigger than an egg…..

had her head scanned, and thank god, there were no clogged blood. She was hospitalized for a nite, and now she’s back at home….well, she couldn’t move her right arm now, and it’s so hard for her to walk….even for her to move an inch is hard now….

when I saw her lying there in the hosp, i rather it was me that was lying there…..how cruel those 2 malay guys were….to snatch an old lady’s bag…mom’s thin enough, and weak enough….now this….geez….how cruel man can be now…..beast, animals….

could jus pray for her to get well soon, and pls GOD, pls punish those 2 guys…..

there’s few things i might wanna say tonite….but i don’t quite really know where to start….1st of all, i’ll start off light ones…..i wanna buy crystals pendant and bracelet for myself….yeah, wanna make my 5 elements ’seimbang’ lah……haha….but kinda tight this month….so, my elements need to wait till next month la….or somebody would want to offer to buy for me, i won’t mind that too….hahahahahahahah…actually searching for a red pendant and a black bracelet…..yeap…knew of a store, belong’s to a fren’s sis…gonna go and have a look when time comes….yeap yeap…..

2ndly, work…work is so so so tiring nowadays…issue’s non-stop coming up again and again….need to rush here rush there…again & again have to do repeated jobs…..have to face wiz hard-like ppl….hard to satisfy ppl…geez….nasib baik, my manager is ok ok la….couldn’t ask for more….besides that, i’m having lovely collegues….fabulous ones….loved them…hahah….we played around each day….making sure our day at office is not a bored and unhappy ones….but, definitely, i will be the ones clowned up la…hahaha…maybe cus of my stupid look…some say it cute, but i say it stupid…hahahhah….stupid round face….

3rdly, wat i’m gonna say here’s gonna be very very sensitive….have keep it up inside me for long time ade…dun really know how to voice it up….

frens….wat are frens for? i don really know wat are frens for for quite some time ade….been losing confidence on frens around me….don’t quite really know if i wanna say i’ve changed…or they changed….or maybe i can put it this way, maybe cus i can’t stand them already….or maybe i’ve had enough…..really realised i’ve been taken granted for so long now, and i can’t hold on anymore….sometimes,i realise there’s no connection between us anymore…interests sway among us….preferences sways among us….our perception sways among us….the way we think differs a lot….i might not agree with what you guys doing/thinking/saying, but i kept it all within myself for all this long…and this really got me hard….realy got me think a lot these days….

what i really can’t stand is tad i don’t see where’s the support from u guys when i’m facing situation. U guys just leave me fighting for myself, and make me look like a stupid fella….with all of u laughing together with an outsider….yeah..real frens….real frens….

and wat i can’t stand more is tad all the back-sayers…….i can’t stop what other mouths would want to talk bout me…but wat goes around comes around….well, this sensitive blog of mine, would certainly stir some chaos then……let it be then…i’m expecting these quite some time ago….

4thly, this ex of mine…really beh hiao pai seh…alwiz say i still can’t let him go…geez….saying i can’t find another bf cus i stil haven’t let him go…geez…can u imagine that?????? can you find another guy who is more ‘thick face’ than him????? being single doesn’t mean i can’t forget him…being single is to enjoy freedom….u & i are history…real history….i’ve looked forward years ago…so, don’t alwiz perasan…..geez….have had enough of you…don’t wish to have more…..cheng, need you to go ‘piak’ this guy, wake him up la…hahahahaha

lastly, cheng & pk…nice to have u guys back here….u guys bring me back to life…yeah yeah…hahahahahah…..love u guys….hope to see more of you…hugs and kisses…..

we’re entering New Year in few hours time….yeah…yeah…

Gonna take this opportunity to wish all my fellow frens and those out there a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

May all resolutions of year 2006 has been achieved, and let’s make new resolutions for year 2007!!!!!!!!

Yeah~~!!!!!!!!

Gonna go party tonite~~~~~ wuhoo……

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

it’s a day more to year 2007, and thus ends 2006….it’s the year of PIG, and I believe this is a year for me to excel in….

basically, I have not done anything for the past few days, though I’m having a whole company shutdown for almot 10 days, should take this opportunity to go vacation somewhere else…hmmm…but instead of that, I’d stayed at home….meeting up frens….choose to rather stay at home spend the last days of year 2006 wiz family and close frens….

yeap, cheng’s has came back from Aus, and finally got to hang out wiz her….spend some gila gila time wiz her….haha…reminds me back of those younger times…when we used to hangs around in pacific, working together, and back to those guiding days….where we had our camping trips, campfire activities, hiking times….well, those were really old sweet days la….

cheng and me were from different class ever since our primary and secondary times….but thanks to the guiding’s activities that got us together…not to forget ling too…..alwiz together during those activities, having fun together….cherish those gila gila moments together….hehe…….though now, all of us has grown up, all goes to different routes, well, i’m now in PG, ling’s now in KL, and cheng….I believe she’ll be goin to SG soon to work…..i believe, our frenship stays strong as ever……

i can never find another frenship as pure as wat we’re having…..thanks girls….thanks for the heart u gals are putting in…thanks….

it’s kinda sad to have to say goodbye to year 2006…as this is a year where I can say a lot of things had happened to me….good, and bad as well…..Another year had passed, where I’ve gained another year of experience of which I’ve treasured most…..I’ve learned a lot of human relationships….the rights and wrongs of one’s life philosophy…..

not to forget, have met new frens….and having old frens in hand….tad’s a plus for me….though all these frens may come to a variety of different characters….though some I may have arguements regarding how different we have our opinions at…..well, i believe without these debates, things would never bring us this far to where we have our frenship all these long…..

have step into working world for more than 6 months now…though it’s not as fun as when we’re studying….but i can tell it’s as challenging as rock climbing…hehe…never rock climb b4, but i can tell it’s very challeging by the successful explanation by my 2 new met frens, lyndia & edwin….both are successful personality for me…yeap, beautiful in and out….nice meeting u guys….

there’s more of me, how my mind jeopardize myself….to write out here….but fear the more i write, the more i offend ppl……a blog is jus us writing out wat we feel, wat we experience, wat we want others to know…no offense anywhere, ok?????

til then, hugs and kisses…..

last christmas i gave you my heart…but the very next day, you gave it away…this year, to save me from tears, I gave it to someone special~~~~~

yeah, my fav christmas song by human nature, erm..duno who’s the origin singer, but the version of human nature’s suits me well…..

but somehow, i guess only christmas songs cheer me up this christmas…i do not really feel wat i felt last 2 christmas…no more ‘ching ching’…no more ‘bling bling’….

stomach’s hungry now…wanna go eat…chao~~~~